Recently the state government of Andhra Pradesh has  taken a decision to introduce CBSE English medium syllabus in government schools through out the state. I felt really happy after listening this news through one of the news channels..

This is really a welcoming decision because it’s not only giving English medium education to the poor but it also bridge the gap between the students who are studying in government schools and the corporate schools.

Now-a-days education become a business in Andhra Pradesh, of course not only in Andhra every where.. Today if u want to get a seat for ur kid in a corporate school u should keep at least 20 thousand rupees in ur pocket... The corporate schools collecting around 10-50 thousand rupees as a donation for kindergarten…now u can imagine how the situation is. Some corporate schools moving a step forward and conducting interviews for parents also. If they qualify in that interview then only they are giving admission… how pity it is?

But I’m still having my doubts how the government put this decision into action.. because the teachers in government schools only can teach in telugu medium because most of them have completed their graduation in telugu medium only..

So that the government having two options in front of them. one is hiring new teachers for CBSE syllabus by keeping all the existing staff. And the second one is giving training to the all existing staff in English medium. it’s not that much easy to do any one of these because if they hire new staff then what about the old ones, whether they can continue in their old post or not.. Suppose if they give training to the old ones we don’t know how much time it will take to train these many teachers. we just need to wait and see until it takes on action.

Any way the change should come in the education system. Otherwise in coming days the common man can not even think about the education in corporate schools (I mean, what we r thinking as a better education :-) :) )..

P.S: now-a-days some of the parents feeling that “it’s a status symbol to join kids in a school by paying more donation”...Apart from this no one is thinking “Is it really worth while or they r creating so much burden on kids by pushing them into a cage where they have to work beyond their ages..”

Dear parents, please think of it…

Hi friends, for the past few days I was busy with my work that kept me away from this iland..That’s reason why u haven’t seen my comments on many of ur posts...Definitely I’ll go through all ur posts which I missed.. 

Now-a-days life is going very flat. just doing routine work. Coming to office and going from the office. For the past few days I’m thinking, is this the life? The question which doesn’t have answer. Every time when I’m thinking about this, I feel there is some thing to do in life but, I donno what is that.. 

I strongly believe that, behind every ones birth there is a good or bad to this world. but I donno whether I’m doing any good or at least am I doing any bad things….no not doing anything…then what’s the use of me for this world… 

If once I realize what I’m thinking it’s really hilarious. Am I the only guy thinking like this or most of the people in this world also thinking the way which I’m. May or may not? 

Every one of us thinking, I want to do this or I want to do that…but how many of us really doing what we want to do...Ofcourse I’m not giving exception to me. I’m also always thinking so many things…but doing nothing on any of those. that’s what life is all about..

I hide behind a mask
You can't see my face
Looking at first glance
I'm in a happy place
The truth is, that's a lie
But you can't really tell
that in the back of my mind
I think the world should rot in hell
What's the point of living
If we are all going to die
What's the point of being happy
If in the end we're going to cry
But this is something no one sees
This is something no one knows
And yet deep inside of me
This feeling of hatred grows
So even though this mask reveals a happy side of me,
I use the mask as a shield to look at what others can never see.

Regards,

Lonely.

Every day when I step into the office my looks goes at her desk, I know she is not there, but a lil hope that pushes me to do that. It’s almost 15 days since last time I saw her. I don’t know whether she is on leave or she’s gone to some other company but even I can’t bare that imagination…. 

First time I saw her the day when i joined in this company. In that first site only I was very much impressed with her dress. She was in saree.. That’s not, but the way she was wearing it is impressed me a lot. No one can find out an inch of bare skin from toe to neck, that’s her speciality”...”first impression is the best impression”..Isn’t it? 

In our day-to-day life we come across so many people. But, few people make their presence or impress us very much. It might be a man or woman or a kid..with their way of speaking, or with their behavior.. 

I was very much impressed with her way of dressing (a typical Indian woman, u can’t find out such kind of woman in this corporate world), her behavior, how she dealt with people. ..So many... I don’t know whether she’s married or not but Some times she looks like 30 plus  and the other time she is very dignified and looks like an IAS officer.. 

I started observing (looking) her from the first day onwards. I don’t have any bad intention on her, but I can’t control my self to avoid my glance. she also know that I’m looking at her, whenever she entered into the office she also looks at me…but after that she never turns her looks away from her laptop.. 

I know that it’s very bad to look at a woman but I can’t control myself and I don’t know why I’m doing this. Some times I want to invite her for a cup of coffee, some times I want to ask her “can I join with u for lunch”..But whenver I meet her during my way to here and there the words won’t come from my throat. From my child-hood I come across so many girls or ladies but no one impressed me the way she has.. 

“life is like a journey, on the way to our destination we’ll meet so many people but few will make their presence and come close to our heart. We’ve to keep those sweet memories and move forward to our destination”. But we never (we can’t) forget these people in our entire life... (These are the lines which I’m saying to myself for the past few days…J)

I donno whether she'll be back or not...but my eyes looking at her desk and waiting for her come back..... 

Maa, Mom, Amma…all the words having similar meaning. If u ask any body in this world, definitely they can say “these are the sweetest words in all”..

U know when mother feels the happiest moment in her entire life..”definitely when you first call her with any of these words”..there is no bounds  to her joy when listening these words from your mouth… 

When you are growing, she’ll see the entire world in your eyes ..she never think about the outside world. Because her entire world is “u only”.. 

U don’t need to think about ur hungry becoz she knows when u feel hungry...she never eat before u take. She is always thinking about u only..she is always there with u either u r in ups or downs. She is always praying god for showering Ample of grace on u. 

When u feels hurt, her eyes fill with tears. When u feel happy, her eyes fill with joy..when u cry, she starts crying. When u laugh, she starts laughing... 

On this mothers day..”I wish happy mothers day to all the mothers on  this universe”..U r the precious gift god has given to us. we promise u on this day, we never do the things that hurts u..

I Love u so much mom.. 

PS:  This is to all the moms in this entire world..

After a hectic night shift I reached my room around 8:30 in the morning..at ten i was in deep sleep. Suddenly there was a knock on the door that pulls me back to this world.. 

That is “my maid”, who is waiting on the opposite side of the door..with a  lil bit irritation I asked what happened..becoz she already come in the morning for house chores. I didn’t find the reason why she come again..

she said “sir, there was a call from my village, one of my relative is not feeling well that’s why I’m not coming for work tomorrow..”. I said o.k with a faded smile (actually I got so much angry for disturbing me while sleeping)..  

Again I tried half-an hour  to get sleep. At last i got it. Suddenly again some one is banging on the door..Oh my god..who the hell  this time? 

That is “Iron Person(press waala)”. Actually here I want to say some thing about this guy..i usually give my cloths on week-ends. That is also after calling more than 10 times then only he will come and collect...that kind of guy come to day with out calling a single time that 2 on week-days. I was really lost my temper…actually I was disturbed by my maid first. Again by this one… 

I murmured..Oh my god...These people won’t let me sleep… 

After a hard fought...i went into deep sleep.. Nothing happened for one hour. Then suddenly again some one is banging on the door.. 

That is “Watch man” with a courier in his hand…may be any time I may burst..he understand my face feelings…he has taken a step back. with out waiting for his response I grab the courier from his hands and shut the door on his face.. 

Friends …I think u can understand my situation right now..through out the night I didn’t have sleep, in the day time also these guys are not letting me to sleep… 

I look at the watch ..it’s showing 2'o clock in the after noon..i started feeling hungry..i’ve prepared some rice and taken it with curd.. 

After watching TV for one hour I was feeling sleepy. With in ten minutes I was again in my dream land.. 

Nothing happened for one hour..then the cell started ringing with a high pitch..i received the call with out opening my eyes..Can u guess who made that call? I really cursed myself  for not keeping the cell in silent mode. I usually do it every day but my bad luck I forget to change it today.. 

“with out my permission the person on the  other side  is speaking....”sir I’m calling from *** customer care..currently u r using my creadit card..it’s really glad to announce that we are going to give some special benefits  on this card…..blah..blah…blah”.. 

Friends can u imagine my situation….:(((((((( 

What a day it is ....Isn’t it????

 Most of my colleagues asking me “how u can be smiling always (internally they feel that “this guy don’t have any problems???)”…the answer from me is  “again a simple smile only”... 

Once if I look back into my life, which I spent until 3 years back is really a different world...so many sleepless nights…no money to take food twice in a day. Thinking hundreds of  times before spending one rupee....oh my god …no ending to the list…  

Like many of the Indians me also come from a poor family who are living under below poverty line…parents don’t have a single cent of land and house to live. They only depends up on their hard work …they will go for daily wages in the field. If they work through out the day they’ll get 25 Rs only….friends I’m not talking about the life before independence..i’m talking about the life which I spent until 3 years back..

But my parents having one strong desire  ...”at least they should give better life to their son”..

Up to 10^th standard I never think about our situation…may be bocoz of my age factor or may be not mature enough to think about family situations.. After that I’ve started thinking ..”how they r working hard..”..can any body believe that “until 3 years back we didn’t have our own house..tv…at least power in the house where we r staying…the house we were staying is a shed where owners usually tied their cattle(buffalos, cows, oxes..etc)..there was no proper roof. if there was raining, we all will move to one corner and wait until rain stops.. In the rainy season it was really like a mess. The dung which the catle releases and the grass which crushed under the legs produce un-bearable smell.. but we are not in a position to afford  rent for a better hosue, that’s why we spent there only..

Once I realized these situations, I started concentrating more on studies…I got a rank in engineering. Few people helped me financially in those four years…finally I got job in a big MNC with a good salary..  

After getting job..in these 3 years i’ve given one beautiful house to my parents, arranged all kinds of home appliances….and even they r not in a position to believe how the life changed with in these three years… 

Now I’m well settled and getting more than 40K per month..but for me, those 25 Rs which my father was getting for his daily wage really valuable than which I’m getting right now… 

What I learnt from my life is “after every sunset there is a sunrise”.. Hope for the future…that hope gives u more energy to move towards your destination... 

Sorry friends…it is somuch boring na... ???????

Sunday night I went to bed a little bit early.. I think.. at 3’o clock suddenly I wake up from my sleep. I tried somuch..but I didn’t get sleep again.. I switched on TV. No mood to watch any channel. Just surfing the channels...Suddenly I struck at one channel, where they are telecasting a documentary on Prostitutes..

 I started watching...”There are somany women telling their stories.” Each woman having her own story...

 Some of them come intentionally and the  others   forcefully by someone into this  field...the reporter asked them why they come into this field.,..
 
One women said that ‘to support her family”…other said “for her daughter”…other said “she didn’t know while coming here that she’s going to do this”..other said some one cheated her by showing a job offer and sell her….there  are somany stories…..

I was really burst into tears when hearing these words from a woman who said “some days more than 50 customers will come…they don’t need about our feeling or pains..they don’t allow us even to take food...” and the other woman said "they’ll come after drinking and behave like psychos. they never treat us as a human beings…even though we request them to take precautions but ..they don"t listen our words..becoz of that few of us already infected with AIDS…even though  they are infected, the company don’t like to send back these infected people..they’ll do business with these people also until and unless they can’t move a step.. and other than this whenever police rides happen, they"ll put around 10 people in a small box and lock..they don"t even think wether we live or die".

 Friends …where India is moving…in our society every one treating a prostitute as an
untouchable…and no one is in a position to understand why these women are coming into this field and the problems which they are  facing...just think at least once what might be the reason...surely it"s "Hunger"... Hunger makes them to do any thing
with out thinking..  

Friends..what do u think on this..?

Today i came to office at 8:30PM ...from after noon i didn't take any thing ..that's why i'm getting somuch hungry...usually the dinner avialable after 9:00PM only..i waited for 30 minutes..once the clock strikes 9..i rushed to the canteen..i've taken plate and arranged all items like roti, rice, curd, salad, sweet..everything..i went to the table to take it...

when i started to take my first piece of roti into my mouth...the cell rang and that is a call from onsite..there was a critical issue we need to solve with in 2 hours..i dropped that piece in the plate and moved towords my desk..

Then the words which my mom told me in my child hood came into my mind "On every food grain, god has written ur name that's why u r taking that food now...if he hasn't written ur name,  even though the food is in ur hand u can't keep it into ur mouth"..

And the other thing  i want to say here  is "don't assure any thing before..if it really has to happen..it'll definitely happen".

Yesterday i got a call from my tenth classmate.. i was really surprised n thrilled aswell..becoz, with in these 11 years i didn't even know where he is and what he's doing..on the discussion i came to know that currently he is working in BSF(boarder security force) and he is having one month leave that's why he came to Andhra to stay with his family..one year back he got married and one month back he is blessed with a baby boy...and he said that "it's very difficult for me to leave my wife and child alone, but i've to go"..then i asked "why don't u take ur wife and child with u"..he replied  "i can take.. but i 2 don't know where i'll be ..few days i'll be in Jammu and few days i'll be himachal pradesh and few days in some other place.." i was really short of words..to divert the topic i inquire about our classmates and teachers..he also not in touch with many of them but he said what ever he knows.. i asked him "when he's coming next time"? he said  "may be after 6 months"..i put the receiver after saying "we'll surely meet next time"..

Immediately i started thinking how difficult it is for him to leave his wife and months baby..ofcourse not only for him..for somany people who are working in military (in the border)..they don't know even whether they can see their wife and children again..on the other side their wives situation is also the same "they don't know what time what news they've to hear".."But in that situation also they are feeling happy becoz they are doing service for the country"...that's what makes them move forward...

After thinking like this ..i really want to say "hats off to the people who are working day and night to protect the country and hats off to their wives aswell"..

I'm really proud today that one of my classmate is in BSF..but on the otherhand i'm really feeling sorry for his situation...hats off my friend...

Like every one of my age...now-a-days me also getting thoughts of marraige..until few days back i never think of marraige and the kind of women whom i"m going to marry(may be becoz of my
studies or may be i want to be well settled in life)..some times it was really suprising me..why i didn"t love any girl from my teen-age..the main reason is "may be i don"t know what exactly love is".. I don"t believe about these college loves..i just believe that it"s only attraction..that might be the one reason i didn"t love any girl yet...ofcourse i was also attracted to few of the girls in my
college days..but i know that "that"s only attraction not a love" .that"s why i was concentrated on my studies only..

Now i was well settled....when i was thinking about my marraige somany doubts coming into my mind..how my marraige life going to be...can i understand my wife properly or can she understands me..her likes may be my dislikes, then how we both can manage....blah..blah..blah.... 

After thinking few minutes like this..my inner mate starts banging .."Hey fool...why u r thinking in otherside of the coin...u"ll deffenitly get good wife, who can understand u very well..just stop thinking and select one girl to marry...u r almost getting 26.."... Oh my god ..my inner mate is also reminding me that i"m getting old...am i really getting old?